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You know, I joke a lot about never being able to finish a writing project even if it's something I'm really invested in and want to see done but like I guess that's just another manifestation of my ADHD-caused Rejection Sensitive Dysphoria
https://www.additudemag.com/rejection-sensitive-dysphoria-and-adhd/
https://www.additudemag.com/rejection-sensitive-dysphoria-and-adhd/
It's a cycle that kind of looks like this:
-I want to write
-But what's the point nobody will read what I write so why am I wasting my effort on something that will ultimately mean nothing to anyone & the only way I know how to process value is thru external validation
-No write
-I want to write
-But what's the point nobody will read what I write so why am I wasting my effort on something that will ultimately mean nothing to anyone & the only way I know how to process value is thru external validation
-No write
And then I fall into a pattern of sadness and anxiety, where I feel frozen b/c I want to be writing but I can't write because my brain's like "there is no point to anything you do since no one else cares" so I get almost debilitatingly sad which reinforces the frozenness
Like there's no actual reason for my existence if I don't produce but there's no point to produce because no one will care about what I produce so the cycle of absolute inability perpetuates itself ad nauseam
Anyway I should probably more aggressively promote the few things I HAVE completed and have available for people to read but that sucks too because like, Twitter is a horrible way to promote things b/c of the algorithm or whatever
But ugh whatever here's a story I'm proud of and is free to read: https://www.patreon.com/posts/short-story-26422730
Here's another one I'm proud of and is also free: https://www.patreon.com/posts/short-story-25348155
And another. Probably my favorite story I've written so far: https://www.patreon.com/posts/short-story-of-26420478
