um can we start talking openly about how badly we're feeling? I know it's easier to couch it in wacky light jokes, but I think so many of us, myself included, feel like we we're rapidly losing ourselves to hopelessness, depression, and fear. so if that's you, you are not alone.
I'm all for light jokes, but if ur really low, and they're all ur seeing, it can seem like everyone but you is a Cute Level Of Sad. Even if that's not true! And it feels really lonely thinking it is true. So I just want u to know that most of us are the messy scary kind of sad.

I talked to my dr today & she suggested many things that I did before quarantine. Exercise, water,going outside. I told her "I used to do all those. I was a very active productive person. And I'm not her anymore." She said "I'm hearing that a lot." It made me feel so much better.
I just know what it's like to feel like you can only joke your way thru ur pain, or else people will think ur too sad and they won't like you anymore, but we shouldn't have to find ways to make our pain funny/cute in a global pandemic. We should be allowed to be honest together
