Depression insomnia is cool because you’re not going to sleep because you know you’ll wake up tomorrow and everything will feel okay for about 2mins. Then you’ll remember and it’ll be worse than now. You’ve gotten used to now. You’re good and numb. Better to just stay here.

Our brains don’t know what to do with this. Fight. Flight. Freeze. Over and over and over again. But freeze, the numb state of depression you finally reach when your brain gives up finding that piece of information, the FUCK DO I DO TO SURVIVE THIS, freeze is less painful.

I’m not saying this because I need help with it. I’ve lived the majority of my life here. I’m not saying that to brag either. There’s no medal for this. I’m just telling you it’s okay. Your meat brain is just trying to survive. Numb lets it work on the problem in the background.