hello 911 yes this is an emergency I love a sports protag and I& #39;m questioning my entire sense of self. please send help

im having hiruma & #39;we cant focus on what we dont have; we just have to make the best we can with what with we do have& #39; yoichi flashbacks https://abs.twimg.com/emoji/v2/... draggable="false" alt="😭" title="Loudly crying face" aria-label="Emoji: Loudly crying face">https://abs.twimg.com/emoji/v2/... draggable="false" alt="😭" title="Loudly crying face" aria-label="Emoji: Loudly crying face">

this is the weirdest thing to me rn.. I don& #39;t have any particular attachment to his design even, my love is purely based on his character...is this what not being a shallow bitch is like...
I don& #39;t know who I am anymore ....