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If you’re planning on being in my life long term you gotta understand that I need frequent breaks from people...
I’ve had people complain about this to me for years and I felt like EYE was doing something wrong. Y’all gotta stop misunderstanding my silence and distance for dissatisfaction.
People who aren’t secure in their understanding of our relationship take these breaks to mean that I don’t care, that I’m not interested. Why can’t I just wanna be tf alone? Why you making it about you?
That shit is mad selfish. I get overstimulated from too much human interaction. I have to talk to people ALL DAY. I need time to sit with myself, to FEEL myself, to listen to MYSELF. There are only so many hours in a day and I’m my first priority.
I put my own needs first. This won’t change unless/until I start my own family. I don’t owe y’all anything. Especially not time that I can’t get back.
So much work goes into conversations and energy exchanges. I feel everyfuckingthing from the people I share space with. I need a fucking break sometimes. People don’t understand how draining it can be to be in their presence.
Does that mean I don’t care? No. Does that mean that relationship isn’t valuable to me? No. But gotdamn can I get some air??? Can we practice healthy boundaries???
I’ve had people end friendships with me because they wanted more of my time... one person stopped being my friend because we only spoke for emergencies. I don’t see a problem.
I feel like, if you are my friend, we should be okay being able to go weeks or months or even years without speaking... and the moment you need me, or I need you, we reach out and support.
I do not require the type of friendship where we call/text/FaceTime every day. There are entire days I go without speaking a single word out loud. Let me fucking live. I still love you tho. But damn.
I think it triggers people because when I do decide to share myself, I give so much. And when I decide to retreat into myself, they miss my energy. Selfish fuckers. I guess I don’t blame you but stop projecting your insecurity onto me. I’m not responsible for satisfying you.
Go outside and play or something. Go read a book. Go entertain yourself elsewhere till I feel like being social again.
Stop using people to make you feel good. We have feelings too. What about what I need? 
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