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I have no will to live any longer.

Hati is pretty much the one person keeping me alive.

Due to my unstable psyche I& #39;ve been having several intrusive thoughts and nightmares... https://twitter.com/Albcatmastercat/status/1392029659898974210">https://twitter.com/Albcatmas...

Sleeping Nightmares I can deal with; my dreamscapes have been full of them for years now.

It& #39;s the Waking Nightmares that destroy me...

I& #39;ve seen visions of Hati dying in front of me, in so many ways, some of them really gruesome and they feel *real*.

I& #39;m scared... Terrified of losing him. I& #39;ve been trying to deal with these thoughts and visions for months. Due to them I& #39;ve been crying myself to sleep almost every day.

Hati has helped me through several very, very intense depressive episodes. The mere thought of losing him - even typing this thread out - is already making me cry.