I’m Scotty Johnson and I’m going to use this as a way to say that I’m thinking because I have no personal people on here.
I float through life just trying to make it with no real destination in mind I have lust issues I have a girlfriend I call my fiancé and I never cheat.

I have time where I feel on top of the world and then the nighttime when she’s asleep next to me and I lay there trying to distract myself with Facebook and tik tok and occasionally porn. Then there is nights like these...

Where I can only lay here and think and usually end up in a trench inside my head with the feeling of sorrow and doubt their isn’t a solitary person on this earth who knows things I think about and I have a wall for the ones who know me, know me as kind, happy, fun, funny,

And honest then there is the real me... liar,self hating, lost, confused, and scared.
I was born in Douglas general hospital in Douglasville GA and raised in villa rica GA 10 minutes west down I-20. I had a father and a mother growing up both who loved me and my brother dearly.

I was always the problem child since I wasn’t the one wanting to work with dad and didn’t get good grades and wanted to be a skateboarder for which I got good at for a fat kid but was a poser for many years. My brother joined the national guard after high school and I was smoking

Pot with my friends and playing video games all day stealing from Walmart and other stores as well as from my parents. jewelry, and money.

I will continue this thread later on since this isn’t easy for me to do I guess I’m just tired to hiding and holding it in if you do end up reading this... it is not for pity, empathy, charity or anything of the sort just a person who wants to open up a small piece to feel better