Self confidence- a thread (venting)
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you know when you’re actually attractive although not being CONVENIENTLY attractive (having Eurocentric features) and you have self confidence and all that stuff but you just can’t accept the fact that you’re attractive so you

Convince yourself that you need plastic surgery and you think these thoughts while still being self confident. I look at myself in the mirror when I’m having a really good day, like when I look really pretty and still think I need plastic surgery. I literally can’t just think

I look good and that’s it, I constantly have to look at other people and wonder why I don’t look like them. I’ve gotten in the mindset that others beauty some how takes away from mine. I’m conditioned to believe that because I don’t have Eurocentric features, and can’t find

*that I can’t find myself attractive. And it really sucks because when I actually feel good about myself I always think, “you shouldn’t though, you don’t look as good as ____” or “you don’t actually look good, you’re just average looking and this is just one of those days where

...you don’t look absolutely horrible” and I really try to push these thoughts back but they’re very obviously there. ANYWAYS this thread probably made zero sense but I just needed to let my thoughts out and Twitter seems like the perfect place for that!