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I struggle so much with this, it is so difficult to explain and others usually don’t understand. It was at its worst in college where my self esteem was destroyed by failing to keep up with the other students, not manifesting my ideas into finished work, and missing deadlines https://twitter.com/danidonovan/status/1391756797631995909
It took me almost two months to send a parcel in the mail to a very close friend of mine who has been diagnosed with cancer. So this doesn’t just happen when it comes to things that may be unpleasant to do, but also things that I do want to do, like show a friend love and care
Sometimes I get real sad and think about all the things I may have done with my life had I not this disability. However all I can do it keep working to build back my self esteem, remind myself that I have always tried my best, and surround myself with compassionate people
I wasn’t diagnosed with ADHD until I was over 25, having revived diagnosis for chronic early onset clinical depression when I was a teenager. So I had a lot of experiences of teachers and other adult mentors telling me I was lazy, didn’t live up to expectations, or a whiner
It was very very bad, especially in college, and I developed symptoms of anxiety as complex as someone with PTSD. I lost over 20 pounds and became so frail. It wasn’t until I sought out the psychiatrist I had at a teen and began to work with her that I was able to stop self hate
Eventually we began to explore feelings I had that couldn’t be explained by depression, and with the help of an infographic about adhd that I related to, my doctor began testing for ADHD. The diagnosis was such a relief. Finally it wasn’t my fault. I WAS good enough
After a few years, I applied to MUN and excelled in my first semester. Something other educators said I would never be able to do. I was fortunate enough to be paired with a student councillor who worked with me for months to compile a report confirming my previous diagnosis
Things have been a lot better since, I still struggle, but the biggest difference is I no longer tolerate anyone putting me down, I know they’re wrong, even if they’re my teachers or mentors. Negative self talk is still a problem for me, but that voice is getting quieter
Twitter really helps as well. I am able to be myself, and connect with people who appreciate me for me, while using block/mute to protect myself from people who want to hurt me or make me feel small. So thanks so much to all my great friends on here! The nice comments mean a lot
