You know what’s crazy ?
I literally allowed myself to remain in a relationship in where my partner at the time didn’t believe in me or my readings or what i wanted to accomplish with my small business
Homeboy really said “you’re a fraud”
Even though I was hurt when we broke up..

That one line stuck with me up until now.
Was I really head over heels in love with someone who didn’t value or honor me?
He knew how big my spirituality meant to me and knew that from jump. So all this time I kept believing the false promises he would tell me.

I remember him saying that he would work on being more open and never worked towards it. Anytime I would want to take a bath or do anything for me or my ancestors it was a problem. Like bro if I’m blessed and protected & I LOVED YOU best believe you’re blessed and protected too.

In Retrospect, I think this relationship taught me to not get so emotionally invested and attached to someone who doesn’t even have a FUCKING CLUE what the word alignment or spirituality means LMAOOOO

Also I need to stop wearing my heart on my sleeve because the amount of effort, time, money, and energy I invest into my partners is UNMATCHED.
You wanna start a project?
Best believe imma support you and give you a pep talk.

You wanna learn how to drive ?
Bet imma teach you and risk my life to teach you in a car that isn’t even mine. LITERALLY.
You want to be feeling yourself?
Go ahead babe imma hype you up.
This is just a few examples but my love is unmatched.

Bro at one point I kid you not I felt like a sugar mama and that’s not to degrade him or nothing but just goes to show what my ass would do for you if I fucking love you. Can’t no one tell me I wasn’t a loving and caring partner who nutures their partner WHENEVER WHEREEVER.

Ngl, i do miss him and I literally cried while writing this thread
but am I really going to miss and cry over someone who didn’t care for me when I was down, depressed, and felt stuck while when he felt that way I DID WHATEVER I COULD TO MAKE HIM FEEL BETTER.

Maybe I miss what we had an all the good times because al thought there were bad times, the good was always fucking great bro.
I try everything to move on but it’s like my mind and my heart are at war for a hopeless love that doesn’t even love me back anymore.

I’m glad I started this thread
Because all thought I’m not completely healed from this heartbreak, it’s true what they say
Time heals.