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BPD is literally so painful. No matter what medications I take or behavioral therapy I attend it’s still there. Sadness feels like suicide, anger feels like I need to destroy everything around me, and I can’t say anything to my loved ones without coming off “manipulative”.
At the same time, when I’m happy, I feel euphoric. I feel on top of the world. And when I love someone, i would go to the ends of the earth for them. (This is not a cry for help Twitter is my diary and there is such a negative stigma around personality disorders.)
10% of ppl with BPD commit suicide. We are more likely to hurt ourselves then EVER hurt the people we love. You don’t have to be scared of someone with BPD. Just learn about the disorder, read up on it for your loved one with BPD.
80% of BPD patients do engage in some sort of self harm. Wether it’s cutting, bruising, scratching, and biting. This does not mean trying to kill themselves. This provides temporary relief and temporary attention. Thus, comes off as “manipulative” and “attention-seeking”.
And finally 50% of BPD patients struggle with substance abuse. Used to numb the pain, fear of abandonment. We have a ton of family trauma, stemming from childhood. Our brains were never given the chance to develop properly. So our emotions are very childlike.
I have struggled with substance abuse, and self mutilation, for a very very long time. I have gotten better and controlling these behaviors. But it doesn’t make the thoughts magically go away, it means I slip up every once in a while. It doesn’t mean I want to die or hurt someone
It’s mental health awareness month. I hope I educated some folks :’) over 5 million ppl in the US struggle with this disorder. That’s a lot. My inbox is always open, I’ll always be ready to support those with the disorder to the best of my abilities. 
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