I don't like saying this-

I haven't felt the kind of hate towards someone that I currently feel towards the person who did this to me. The trans girl who called me a man, triggering my dysphoria and sending me into this depression that keeps getting worse 1/3

I don't believe in retributive justice. I tell myself this, but then I feel like I want to hurt them. I fucking hate their guts and I want them to feel pain. I wish they were dead. But I also hate that I feel this way 2/3

I feel like a horrible, spiteful person 3/3