//vent

I... Have such strong feelings of envy for so many different things and I just... Its always been there. Long before this twitter account was even made. I don't know what causes it, I'm medicated for anxiety which is the cause of my depression or at least I think...--

--I try to get over the feelings and they do fade but the flare ups are really what just hurts. The feeling of "I want that" when I don't fully understand the want. I have an idea for the cause but there is literally no way anyone can help with it cause it would just be pity--

--it wouldn't be genuine and I think that would make it worse. I've gotten better at overcoming it but fuck does it still hurt. /gen /lh /nbh

Please just disregard this thread... I'll probably delete this later

This was a bit relaxing to write out. I'm a bit depressed but... I'll get over it