I& #39;m re-reading the comments under my phutian series. Oh my. I& #39;m emotional again https://abs.twimg.com/emoji/v2/... draggable="false" alt="😅" title="Lächelndes Gesicht mit offenem Mund und Angstschweiß" aria-label="Emoji: Lächelndes Gesicht mit offenem Mund und Angstschweiß"> idk what i did, or what i write in general, for people to actually read/comment/kudos my stories. It& #39;s such a crazy & amazing thing for me. I just love writing & it feels great to receive feedback–

–from the readers out there. But i would always end up beating myself, contemplating my stories/writing style. Altho i tried my best to stop comparing my works with others, but sometimes i can& #39;t help but wonder, "why my stories doesn& #39;t get much comments?" It makes me feel–

–insecure most of the time because i& #39;m so afraid if my stories doesn& #39;t appeal to the public. I& #39;ve been on that loop a lot for the past few weeks because, God, i tried not to overthink, but i& #39;m a human too. Thinking of it makes me feel down and demotivated, tbh. https://abs.twimg.com/emoji/v2/... draggable="false" alt="😔" title="Nachdenkliches Gesicht" aria-label="Emoji: Nachdenkliches Gesicht">

So these days, i tried not to think/doubt myself. I& #39;ll just continue writing according to my ability and style. I had to constantly implant that notion in my mind, "you& #39;re different na. Don& #39;t compare yourself with other writers." So, i hope that i& #39;ll not be sad/discourage–

–even if my stories don& #39;t get much comments like others. I just have to continue what i& #39;ve started, & stop doubting myself, right? I think i did a great job in writing most of the time https://abs.twimg.com/emoji/v2/... draggable="false" alt="😅" title="Lächelndes Gesicht mit offenem Mund und Angstschweiß" aria-label="Emoji: Lächelndes Gesicht mit offenem Mund und Angstschweiß"> i deserve a pat on the back //pats// don& #39;t be sad, na! You did well. Trust yourself https://abs.twimg.com/emoji/v2/... draggable="false" alt="😊" title="Lächelndes Gesicht mit lächelnden Augen" aria-label="Emoji: Lächelndes Gesicht mit lächelnden Augen">

And this may sound immature or funny, but i kind of check my ao3 only when i want to update/post a story these days https://abs.twimg.com/emoji/v2/... draggable="false" alt="😅" title="Lächelndes Gesicht mit offenem Mund und Angstschweiß" aria-label="Emoji: Lächelndes Gesicht mit offenem Mund und Angstschweiß"> i& #39;ve not read any fanfic for a while now... just because, it makes me feel at ease https://abs.twimg.com/emoji/v2/... draggable="false" alt="😂" title="Gesicht mit Freudentränen" aria-label="Emoji: Gesicht mit Freudentränen"> + i don& #39;t really have the time to read since works are piling up https://abs.twimg.com/emoji/v2/... draggable="false" alt="😢" title="Weinendes Gesicht" aria-label="Emoji: Weinendes Gesicht">

Lol. What am i talking about https://abs.twimg.com/emoji/v2/... draggable="false" alt="😂" title="Gesicht mit Freudentränen" aria-label="Emoji: Gesicht mit Freudentränen"> hahaha. I& #39;m done with my rants. Please ignore this thread if u see it on your tl https://abs.twimg.com/emoji/v2/... draggable="false" alt="🤣" title="Lachend auf dem Boden rollen" aria-label="Emoji: Lachend auf dem Boden rollen"> i& #39;ll delete this soon. Just want to let it out. I sincerely hope my heart will be at ease after this. No more self condescending. No more doubts or worries.

Write when u want to write, stop when it gets too much, okay? Promise me, okay, na? Don& #39;t be so hard on yourself...