i think i finally understand why i didnt content to Fata as much as others

the idea of presenting an awful person and only after seeing all the awful things they've done do we get their reasoning and perspective on things feels very off and wrong to me

its untraditional for sure, and i commend any writer who is willing to take a risk with the director they take their story, but the problem with presenting your characters that way is that in my eyes, whether that is the actual intent or not, it feels like trying to justify

said character's actions

the closest thing i can think about that could somehow convey this idea through an example is Death Note:
imagine if the story started with Kira already being on top of the world and getting stopped by Near, and only after that do we get the entire L arc

even if the intended purpose is not to justify Kira's actions, it still comes across that way since the story is trying to make me feel sympathy for someone i know is a monster
i feel like this way of storytelling can lead me to understand a character better...

but it doesn't let me connect to them as a person, and i usually find characters that are "well written but i didnt connect to" very forgettable or just leave me apathetic to them, when i see the entire point of fiction as eliciting an emotional response