thought i was over it but here i am AGAIN intensely regretting that i left home to go to college in cali

not a day went by in my 4 years where i didn’t think “oh life would’ve been better if i just stayed in hawaii or went to a different school” I LITERALLY HAD THE CHANCE TO TRANSFER TO UH MANOA MY FRESHMEN YEAR but i didn’t....

i didn’t cause i thought the next year would get better and cause i had “new friends” who could make it better.

it was mistake cause i was always so homesick. im happy that i got my bachelors/had good grades but in reality im not that proud of myself cause i feel like i could’ve accomplished way more...WAY MORE.

there could’ve been so many more opportunities for me elsewhere/back home but i chose to stay in a place where i was temporarily happy but not really proud. i always tried to tell myself that it’s ok and maybe it was all in the plan for me to go to my college.

but i can’t even blame the universe or whatever cause it was MY CHOICE which makes it even harder for me to accept.

seeing people’s grad photos from back home made me actually so sad cause the photos are all so beautiful and everyone is so so so proud of their accomplishment/s.

i just- main point is: be in a place where you’ll be happy and/or proud. it’s not worth it to stay in a place that you’ll regret in the future. we only got one life so we might as well live doing what makes us happy & proud of ourselves. [might delete this thread later lmao]