i just talked to this one guy i had a crush on for like the entirety of last school year and tbh i think the reason why i thought i liked guys is bc i find some guys attractive with their looks but mostly it was bc they were funny and like i knew they would give me attention

like i jad this whole thing b4 i came out as lesbian where i was like why did i like men???? but i think it was bc it was internalized i forgot what it was called but convincing myself that i liked guys and i basically just thought that if i liked attemtion and thought they were

funny/pretty that meant i liked them and i just went eith it bc i never like i never questioned my feelings u knoww but then comes the question where i ask,, why dont i ever want a relationship when they like me back?? i used to tell myself i need to have a crush to keep my mind

busy and that it was just fun to think abt someone but that didnt mean it was romantichttps://abs.twimg.com/emoji/v2/... draggable="false" alt="😭" title="Laut schreiendes Gesicht" aria-label="Emoji: Laut schreiendes Gesicht"> i just liked being busy or else it would make me go insane so i didnt like guys i liked being crushed on and having someone to think about!

and like this quarantine i was like wait im not attracted to men at all i find most guys ugly and it makes me rlly uncomfy thinking abt having a boyfriend while with girls i want to date them and love and all that yeah SO YEAH WOOHOO CRISIS ENDED YAYYYY