My mom once told me wished she could& #39;ve had more kids, she just really enjoyed being a mom. Why out of her daughters did her trans daughter (me) have to be the one to inherit that instinct so strongly. Sigh.
I delayed transitioning for so long in hopes of being a parent... It seemed like the right trade-off at the time, heh. I tried so hard to pretend to be a cis het guy but I just couldn& #39;t pull it off :/

It is what it is but it& #39;s still kinda sad, idk.
My sisters both have kids so I have 3 niblings now (I love the word--gender neutral niece/nephew). It was so wonderful when they were born, and I& #39;m a very proud Aunt Jenny now :)

I just wish it wasn& #39;t also a bit painful, thinking about how my body can never get pregnant. :/
(I& #39;ve never been attached to the idea of genetically related kids, so adoption is like possible in theory, I think where I live it& #39;s legal for an unmarried LGBT person. But even for married cis het folks I& #39;ve heard adoption was really difficult.)
(Same thing with surrogacy. It used to be de facto illegal where I live but may have changed, even so idk it& #39;s accessible.)
I mean rationally I know raising a human child is an *incredible* amount of effort and responsibility, having heard just a fraction of the difficulty my sisters have gone through, and heard many stories over the years from friends etc.

But it doesn& #39;t stop the desire.
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