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i don’t think we talk about how much meaning this scene has
my experience throughout childhood /it was never physical/ has led me into my teenage years, still under the same roof as him, really doubting everything. one day i’ll hate my stepfather for everything i went through, wish he’d never come back, and then the next day -
i just revert to this idea that i’m overreacting and it wasn’t that bad, or at least not as bad as i feel like it was. it’s a constant battle in deciding what i actually make of that trauma/experience, and years down the line and i still haven’t gotten close to figuring it out -
this scene almost makes me feel like jay and zac are just both one mind, but fighting completely different corners of the same situation. you have the, maybe not forgiving, but the acceptance and the lucky ability to move somewhat past it-
and then you have the unforgiving side, the side that holds the trauma close and in some way, can process all of it, or simply chooses to not forgive to any extent. both completely valid, and it’s something that’s so apparent to me in this scene -
is that they both apply to me, and in some ways, possibly more people. i still don’t know what to make of my childhood, maybe it’s with my whole family moving past it and myself stuck behind, or what. but it’s such an emotional scene to me -
with just how heavily it reflects me in both forms. i think they did amazing with this, and the line ‘if i choose to hate him for that’ really meant something to me because it’s only the victim who should get a say in what they think of it all, and the only opinion that is valid-
this may not have made as much sense as i hoped, but i just really do connect with this scene and i think it’s definitely good at making a point
