Free career advice: get a hobby
Boundaries are important. You should have the agency to choose your friends.
I love my job! But I also know how capitalism works. I've been through 4 layoffs at 2 companies. I also worked at some VERY toxic places. I've learned my lesson about putting my emotional eggs in a business basket.
I am friends with some folks at my job and I deeply respect everyone I work with, but I refuse to put my whole life into a company. My job is to give them expertly-delivered, high-quality labor for which I am paid. Not to give my whole being
During the time I don't spend with my coworkers, I make games... climb rocks... draw... dance... I'm a whole-ass person y'all. With friends who don't get W2's or 1099s from the same place I do.