it’s so hard to talk to people, face to face, about my mental health, and so i’ve never really opened up to people irl. instead, i’ve sequestered myself to whatever goes on in my mind. i’ve pushed a lot of people away, i know, without trying or even realizing.

i wish i could go back and fix things with this or that person, and part of me feels i could if i tried. but am i worth it? should i even bother? people are happy. and i don’t want to bring them down.

i don’t really know what this thread was supposed to be about…maybe it exists just to exist, like me.