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I& #39;ve always kept things to myself and I know everyone always say that I shouldn& #39;t do that. cuz it& #39;s not good for your mental health and you& #39;re gonna explode one day. Well I still do it. cuz I legit have no one to talk to. my mom is never there when I need her -
but funnily, she& #39;s there when I don& #39;t necessarily need her. and I don& #39;t trust my friends enough to talk to them cuz one, it& #39;ll always somehow turn to something about them. and then it& #39;ll make me feel shittier cuz they& #39;re going through something even worse than I am and-
I& #39;ll ALWAYS regret talking about my problems to my friends. always. so, now I just keep silent. it& #39;s frustrating. yes. and this problem just adds on to all my actual problems which really does make things harder for me. so idk why I do this to myself but at the same time I do.
it& #39;s also really hard to wish about wanting to have someone to talk to when I have no idea who exactly I want to talk to... if that makes sense. like I don& #39;t want that person to just be quiet and listen the whole time. I kinda want them to share their opinions but at the-
same time, not talk shit about the person in talking about. like be rational I guess?? idfk.
One of my problems I& #39;m dealing with right now is being me. lmao. since I can& #39;t talk about my problems. and i try my best not to gossip about other people. I legit have no idea what to talk about with my & #39;friends& #39;. cuz those two topics are literally the main conversations with-
anyone and everyone. why is gossiping about other ppl so normalized?? I just wanna talk about everything except shitting on other people and shitting on celebrities. also I might be too much, but I dont wanna talk about politics. lol. I& #39;m reaching my 20s and I still-
find politics so conservative. is that the right word to use? uh whatever. I have a friend where all we talk about is fangirling over the same two artists. and yes I love these artists dearly and I do enjoy fangirling over them but then I realised that-
she talks about so many other things with her other friends. and it makes me feel like what am I. ALSO, all my friends have other great friends but they have the AUDACITY to say they MISS ME???? why the fuck. I& #39;m so boring and shitty and always the last to know about things-
sometimes. most of the times. I just want to block everyone I know and never talk to them again. but a small part of me is a coward and is afraid to lose these long years of friendship. I& #39;ve long learned that toxic friends are different from toxic friendships.
like, they could be the nicest friend ever to you but the friendship that we have is just not clicking. or maybe I& #39;m the toxic one. lmao.
