I still cant forget your face, why did i still miss you ? i still look at our old picture when we smile together, i still remember our late night conversation when we discuss about random thing, when you ask me what i want to become in the future.

and i confidently said that i want to open a small clinic beside the river, where i'll be the doctor and you take care the administration stuff. Since i'm not that put much attention to detail.

i was so childish back then, i said a lot of stuff yet i can't really express my true feeling to you.
Why the F, i just cant said that i like you especially when you decide to go to another city far away to study.
I'm sorry that i dont have enough guts to say thing i really -

want to say when you are graduate, i'm to embarrassed to come to my old school even though a lot of teacher ask me to come, perhaps because i'm always a coward.
Fuck it.
and now you already got accepted in your dream university and major in east java & it seem you happy with him

i still remember that you ask me/ giving signal to me that you are into me but i'm to dumb to realize it or perhaps i still traumatized with past relationship thus i dont have any guts to take a chance.

even though you and i are frequently going to informal date, you still remember the taste of sweet drink right ? we drink it on outlet store when rain come & you ask me what is our status ?
and i stupidly said " jalanin aja "

i still remember when you congratulate me on when i got accepted at uwiw and said that my gap year are worth it, eventhough at that time our relation are already cold.

Alias gw kenapa galo anjing

and i still remember your word to me " Kalo lo suka sama seseorang, mendingan lo ngomong aja daripada lo ragu ragu dan nyesel " and i applied that concept when i choose univ yet i cant applied it on relationship.

I just hope you are happy with him, he seem a nice guy and at least he have a gut to commit in relationship unlike me.
Man life feel so bland when i decide to block you on every social media, college feel hard because i'm now is consider an adult & why the f all my friend

are full of jakartans ideology that seem so strange to me.
Hah perhaps that is the part of growing up, to accept the condition and do our best to stay sane.

Also i just find out that i actually have a type of girl that i liked.
Short haired, short, and cold which remind me like my mother and sister.
Guess who have some Oedipus complex ?