my peak introvert behavior was when I never ever had those alcohol nights in college. i only later transformed into a pure alcoholic post-grad during my Europe tours LMAO

I never hang out with friends for alcohol. to say...I'm kind of the nerd in status. I also blame biopsychology for the lectures on alcohol vs the brain. I'm a coffee drinker. That completely changed once I went to Europe and BOOM

+++++completely comfortable drinking alone. I guess I'm never fond of social drinking unless it's my super close friends (Who are not alcoholics themselves) so it'd never happen.

Those years between graduating college until I'm like 23 were like the hardest transition years of my life because I never knew where to go. I also had painful heartbreaks from stupid relationships because I was not yet mature enough to handle them. All pushed me to drink.

My first job was SHIT. I stopped believing in the local clinical psych because I worked with a shtty psychologist who only cares for money. Then realized my true calling was on academia and research so I went there and left clinical practice. Still in the difficult times...

My happy and sad meters went on and off. Those years I felt like I was being pushed here and there by life experiences. Some fave family members also passed away. I felt like swimming in a constant river of emotional wreckage. Life slowly went back on track in 2019...

Cheesy as it may seem but in 2019 I found TWICE and life has been very kind to me. I found a stable source of my financial needs. A good job. I networked with better people = better relationships. ~~2020 not really a bad year but a year of important decisions~~

Minus the pandemic, 2020 was a good year. I went out of my comfort zone. If I didn't push myself out of it, I would have never met the significant people for the career I am building now. SO GUYS PLEASE GO FIGHT OUT OF YOUR COMFORT ZONES!

And now we arrive in 2021. 25 and better. The wound I gained from the previous years became tattoos on my skin. I am proud of my struggles because they are the reason why I became who I am now.

So that's it.
I WROTE THIS THREAD JUST BECAUSE CLEAN PLAYED ON YOUTUBE. Lol I felt emo and had to reflect on my struggles.
On my alcohol update, I stopped drinking since NYE. I am 5 months clean as of today. :)