1. Let me tell you something...if you need a contract negotiated or your compensation package negotiated, I'm your guy. I'll get you more than you ever imagined. Truly.

But when it comes to myself re money and valuing my labor...I absolutely suck.

2. Unless it's a really big company...I feel selfish valuing my labor

I feel like people will see me as a selfish narcissist!

I've gotten lucky, one time when I told a boss how much of a bonus I thought I deserved, they looked at me dumbfounded & said they were giving me double

3. Most of my close friends ask me for advice on their deals from top execs to actors to friends who do administrative work to friends who work for non-profits.

I get the difference between why I am so good at helping them and not myself but gosh does it make me sad sometimes.

4. To avoid the feeling that I'm a narcissist re money I'm constantly catching myself suggesting instead of taking comp, the company/person who wants me to do something for them can just make a donation to my favorite charity

It's not even a guilt thing. It's a self-worth thing.

5. It took me a while to accept this is a self-worth thing. For so long I couldn't understand why that would be the case. When it comes to stuff I know I'm good at, I am very, very confident.

But it's definitely a self-worth thing.

6. This is true to a certain extent but there’s definitely a self-worth element in here because it exists no matter what. Even when there isn’t a relationship factor. https://twitter.com/please_habibi/status/1390367494901227520

7. Like I actually felt bad asking for compensation for stuff during this pandemic because I'm lucky to have a roof over my head!

My brain...

And I still felt guilty even though I've given a lot of money away in past year. You'd think I'd see it as replenishing that at least.

8. To illustrate my point in the first tweet, since the time I tweeted this thread, a follower who is also friend texted me asking for help and I set them up with a big agent to talk about representation.

Just wild.

9. Thanks for reading this earlier and for your nice DMs. It felt good to share this and I feel like sharing it publicly lifted a weight off my shoulders.

I just shake my head at all the times I've downgraded myself while upgrading others...I could have given more money away!