talked about trauma acceptance in therapy and what that would look like for me. it's interesting. I don't know

The part of being a survivor that no one talks about is that—long after the initial sting of trauma has faded into a deep numbness— being a rape victim is political.

You are constantly bombarded with ethical dilemmas that your rapist will never have to experience or ever consider.

The dilemma of speaking out.

The ethics of whether you should message his new girlfriend in order to warn her.

The heart wrenching tear in your heart between wanting your rapist to forever suffer for just as much as you have, while also not believing in incarceration.

The ethics of forgiveness. Trying to decide what justice even looks like for you, because it certainly doesn't feel like putting them away would do anything. Constantly being told that we are participating in violence against other women bc we don't report. It's a lot.

It's hard and it sucks. A lot