Wawi rant: it’s always been my dream to be a content creator. (youtuber when I was a kid) but I’ve always backed away before getting super serious about it because I felt like I couldn’t justify spending so much time/effort/money on something that wasn’t a stable career

Definitely my first generation Vietnamese American upbringing with immigrant parents had a lot to do with how I think about careers (stability over everything). I always tried to push my dreams away and just do what’s best for myself financially/educationally

I’m so surprised I went through with vtubing ngl.. lots of time and money with little monetary reward (I know it’s supposed to be a hobby but I grew up poor lol) but it feels like Vtubing is the first thing I’ve ever truly done for “myself”

I love doing this, in a dream world we would all be able to do this as a solid career and live happily ever after...I try not to get too hard on myself about vtubing but I am at times bc I’m so passionate about it and want it to work out so badly

I know I should treat it as a hobby. I know I shouldn’t look at numbers, compare my growth to others, and take it “too seriously” but how do you do that with something you’ve spent so much money/time on? (and something that is your dream career)

Sorry if this thread makes me sound superficial HAHA I just grew up in an environment where it was better to do the logical thing than fulfill desires. Good grades, prestigious school, and only do what is necessary. I am a perfectionist, I got adhd and a whole lotta trauma