"I don't remember you from GamerGate."

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I removed the vids a few years ago cause it was "cringe."

I was always here. The first video has over 10k views. I was always fucking here.
But see... I never had the face for TV, you know. :)

And I had too many mental hang-ups to handle the constant shit thrown at me.

And I didn't have people backing me up. Too many people would meet me IRL and stand with me, but they just stopped. I couldn't talk about this.
I was one of the first voices because my Fall from the Woke Grace happened when /r/Games and 4chan banned any talk of ZQ's boyfriend and his Tumblr post outing her as a cheater. Tumblr Post>Censorship>Streisand Effect>GamersAreDead>etc etc
I didn't have the money to go to Air Play. I didn't have the money to go to all the meet-ups that happened outside of Los Angeles. But I was at the LA one.
Ralph from The Ralph Retort used the horrific character attack from Mike Sacco, his then-wife, and Blue Whale as headlines for his site. I had no problems with it because I considered Ralph a friend even if he was extreme sometimes.
I criticized him sometime after for a shitty thing he did and he went after me. I immediately backed off because I knew he would be spiteful enough to send his followers my way. I was well aware of his mob, and I still am. I'm fucking terrified to write this out right now.
This is just one example of emails I was getting in support of the shit I was going through.

This shit happened to me ... May 2015. 7 fucking years ago this fucking month.
https://mobile.twitter.com/tartdarling/status/600459985278087168

This person used to be one of my best friends. I loved her and Joe.

All the tweets Harper made against me are still up. I knew Tart years before this stabbing me in the back. They're all there.

No remorse after everything I did for them.
The lie that started it all. She acted as she knew me. Pretended she knew everything about me because of Sha of Happiness and her fucking bullshit lie she spread 7 fucking years ago.
Sha of Happiness, remember her?

She was my fucking friend online to the point where she went out of her way to find me at the Blizzard art event at Gallery Nucleus. She "commissioned" me for a Sha hoodie design that went nowhere.
I was always under the impression everything was fine between us until that Blizzard event that happened at the outdoor mall in Anaheim. I saw her walking out of the parking garage that my family and I parked in as well. I waved to her and she flat out ignored me.
I said "That's weird" to my husband @codahighland and shrugged it off.

Months later, Randi Harper spread that lie because I called Harper out for attacking people online.
Because Sacco was friends with Zoe Quinn, he hated me.... so his wife hated me.... so she used Harper to spread more lies about me... Including implying I could be a pedophile because of the pictures of my son I posted on deviantART.
People who I had trusted to be my friend during the prime WoW days and people who hated me during those same days banded together to destroy me.

Credit where it's due... Ralph Retort was the only one that shared my story as it was happening.. but no one cared.
I remember it all vividly because I was having a panic attack in the middle of fucking Disneyland.

At the goddamn Tiger Tails booth.

Because I started getting a lot of Twitter notifications.
WHY DID NO ONE BELIEVE ANYTHING I SAID?

They spread so much lies and misinformation without A SINGLE FUCKING PICTURE OR SCREENSHOT TO BACK UP THEIR CLAIMS!!

And yet when I said "None of that is true!" NO ONE CARED. NO ONE CARED SO THEY CONTINUED THEIR ATTACK.

FOR YEARS!!!
You wanna know why I haven't shut the fuck up about it for 7 years?!

BECAUSE THEY CAME AFTER MY FUCKING FAMILY AND YOU DID NOTHING BUT BOOSTED YOUR OWN FUCKING VIEWS!!! I JUST WANTED SOMEONE TO HELP ME!
WHERE WERE YOU @GRUMMZ?! @action_pts @SophNar0747 @shoe0nhead @oliverbcampbell @ChrisRayGun

Why did you claim to be there for gamers when you had a person being slandered and attacked and you didn't fucking do anything!?

I can't take it anymore!
Why wouldn't you take a stand with me on May 16th when one of the people you wouldn't fucking shut up about was going after someone that supported you?!

Why was my voice pushed aside after you were done talking to me?!
WHY WAS MY VOICE IGNORED?!
Pretend you stand for gamers and the rights of others but turn a blind eye when one of your own is suffering because it's too much trouble, am I right?
Did I not donate enough to your Patreon?
Did I RT enough? Did I not spread your links enough?

Just like my so-called liberal friends that renounced me for standing up for gamers, you guys stopped talking to me when you realized I couldn't put you up higher on the totem pole.
I can't shut the fuck up about it because for 7 fucking years I have been a shield for SJWs and popular GamerGaters and cast aside when I wasn't useful anymore.

That's why I canceled years-long twitch and/or patreon subs, or unfollowed after 7 fucking years.
I stopped drawing because, during GamerGate, I would get dozens and dozens of RTs and likes and comments on my OPINIONS on GamerGate.

My drawings didn't get those same RTs.
To this day, when I post rare bits of art, no matter how much I'm proud of myself... nothing.
I can't stop talking about it after 7 years because I know none of them are sorry.

How can you be sorry to someone you never wronged, am I right? Can't wrong someone if you ignore their very existence when you've moved on from the subject.
Goddamn, talk about privilege.

Having an audience large enough defend against blatant character assassination and pretending that anyone else having an issue is just some asshole that isn't part of your life at all. Duh. Just someone from 7 years ago...
I wrote that on September 7th, 2014.

I was THERE!
TELL ME WHAT IT WAS THAT MADE YOU HOLD MY VOICE DOWN WHILE YOU RAISED OTHERS UP!

Tell me why my story was set aside for other stories!! Did I say something wrong!? What is wrong with me?! TELL ME!
Because for years you acted like I meant something to someone!

And now you drop off the fucking planet!
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