me: i’m not becoming a part of stan twitter again NO way

also me: replying to paget/cm stan accounts because i like their content

also also me: used to be afraid of making a new twitter for fear that i would be bullied and traumatized again

me: is not afraid of being hurt anymore. i’m standing up for myself and not letting people walk all over me because i care so fucking deeply about my friends and then they take advantage of that and manipulate me and bully me <3

the toxicity of stan twitter (this doesn’t apply to all stand/fandoms obviously) and group chats are truly ABOVE AND BEYOND how bad i expected it to be. i’m here now, turning 23 this year, and i’m not obsessed with twitter and group chats.

me: literally isn’t afraid of anyone seeing these tweets. not even a year ago i peeped on my ex-friends accounts on twitter and saw some tweets (not even abt me? well one of them) and i kid you not i immediately starting panicking and sobbing