Last night when I got back to EMS headquarters at the end of my shift there was a group of 40-60 people, mostly young adults assembled in a parking lot/loading area directly across from where we return our vehicles.
No distancing, no masks.
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No distancing, no masks.
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I sat in my truck stunned.
And angry.
This wasn’t a protest.
This was a boatload of people having a party in a parking lot.
Music blaring, close dancing, the whole deal.
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And angry.
This wasn’t a protest.
This was a boatload of people having a party in a parking lot.
Music blaring, close dancing, the whole deal.
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A huge part of me wanted to drive over and scream at them.
I spent my night in PPE trying to help COVID patients, and these people were literally having a party without a care in the world, like it’s just the #BestSummerEver.
I took a few breaths...
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I spent my night in PPE trying to help COVID patients, and these people were literally having a party without a care in the world, like it’s just the #BestSummerEver.
I took a few breaths...
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And then I slowly drove over.
I pulled up beside them and rolled down my window.
One of the prototypical tough guys said “who the F*ck does this guy think he is?”
I looked at the closest one and asked him, “Do you know what this building is?”
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I pulled up beside them and rolled down my window.
One of the prototypical tough guys said “who the F*ck does this guy think he is?”
I looked at the closest one and asked him, “Do you know what this building is?”
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He looks at me and says “Yeah, it’s EMS headquarters”.
I’m stunned.
My anger starts to rise again.
I push it back down.
I’ll use it, not the opposite.
I take half a second, pick the people I want to make eye contact with and then I speak again.
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I’m stunned.
My anger starts to rise again.
I push it back down.
I’ll use it, not the opposite.
I take half a second, pick the people I want to make eye contact with and then I speak again.
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“I have coworkers who can’t see their families because of exposures trying to treat people because of this pandemic. I have friends who haven’t been able to attend funerals for loved ones.”
I look at one girl in whom I can see the cracks starting to form.
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I look at one girl in whom I can see the cracks starting to form.
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“I get that you’re tired. I get you want to see your friends. I’m tired and I want to see mine too.”
I pause again...
“But I’m telling you, when we end a shift and this is what we have to see, it hurts. It just hurts.”
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I pause again...
“But I’m telling you, when we end a shift and this is what we have to see, it hurts. It just hurts.”
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They’re silent.
I put the truck in drive and head into the garage.
My truck gets parked in it’s designate spot.
I rest my head on the steering wheel for what feels like an eternity.
I start to clean my truck up, put the things back where the things go...
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I put the truck in drive and head into the garage.
My truck gets parked in it’s designate spot.
I rest my head on the steering wheel for what feels like an eternity.
I start to clean my truck up, put the things back where the things go...
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Curiosity finally gets the better of me.
I wander over to one of the doors and look out the window.
Part of me knows that I’m setting myself up for tremendous disappointment.
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I wander over to one of the doors and look out the window.
Part of me knows that I’m setting myself up for tremendous disappointment.
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But I look out the window and they’re gone.
I stand there for a second. These are big feelings and I am tired.
But we’re all tired.
And this was a good reminder of something that I tell my kids all the time...
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I stand there for a second. These are big feelings and I am tired.
But we’re all tired.
And this was a good reminder of something that I tell my kids all the time...
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Anger is combustible.
You can use it as a fuel, but if you let it take control it can consume you.
We are in dark times right now.
But maybe we all need to also remember to take a step back from letting our anger consume us.
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You can use it as a fuel, but if you let it take control it can consume you.
We are in dark times right now.
But maybe we all need to also remember to take a step back from letting our anger consume us.
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Those kids weren’t thinking. That’s what I’m going to tell myself.
I’m sure if I had gone over there and indulged my anger in the way I wanted to, there would have been a very different outcome.
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I’m sure if I had gone over there and indulged my anger in the way I wanted to, there would have been a very different outcome.
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So maybe what we really need is for everyone to just take a step back and remember that we’re all tired.
And we’re all scared. For a lot of reasons.
Because we really need to just take care of each other right now.
We really just do.
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And we’re all scared. For a lot of reasons.
Because we really need to just take care of each other right now.
We really just do.
/fin