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i'm perfectly fine not being a big name furry or anything thanks. feels like notoriety comes with a "can't stop me now" mentality that inevitably results in doing something fucked.
i've already got enough irl stress without the idea that i'll do something shitty just because i think i can get away with it.
i'm not a perfect person either, i said and did some shit i regret and want to move on from.
i'm not a perfect person either, i said and did some shit i regret and want to move on from.
this goes beyond just the regular "jokes" that come with being an edgelord teenager, i'm open about admitting i was part of the centrist trashheap that made up a chunk of the alt right pipeline. i'm sure i fucked up someone's emotional state. i did some shitty things.
and i want to move on from that. that was years ago, i own up to it and i apologize for the harm it caused.
i hate my teenage self, but i still have lots of growth to get through.
i hate my teenage self, but i still have lots of growth to get through.
i guess that's why i'm content with having 500-1000 followers. i was initially in it because seeing numbers go up gave me a dopamine boost. it still does, to an extent - but i don't want to trade my dignity for validation.
There's a lot of existential self-loathing in this thread, so i guess its a vent. i'm admittedly a little worried about my image online if only because i don't want to turn into the asshole content creator who whines about being cancelled for being accidentally racist or smth.
if there's anything anyone wants to call me out for i would just accept it. i can step in and say "this is true" or "it didn't happen" but i would never make it about how i'm being attacked for something i did in the past. i know i did some shit and probably contributed to worse.
i've never truly made my peace with that, but i'm trying. i'm not a morally-perfect angel, and i likely will never be. it just keeps me up sometimes.
also this is not a defense of pedophilia or anything similar - i'm just airing out my own dirty laundry because i'm depressed.
also this is not a defense of pedophilia or anything similar - i'm just airing out my own dirty laundry because i'm depressed.
