i don’t think ppl realize that social anxiety isnt just having trouble speaking to people, but it could also be just being around people in general.

i hate having social anxiety. it’s fucking crippling. i can’t interact with new people normally without shaking and sweating, no matter how much i want to, even online.

i especially hate the idea that people can form thoughts about me that i’ll never hear. i’m something that people can look at. i don’t even feel like a person sometimes, i’m just a thing walking around to be judged and perceived.

i never want to leave my room, it’s not a way a person should live. having your biggest fear being people. they scare me so much. i need to know what everyone thinks of me all the time and it’s exhausting.

i know in my mind it’s illogical, but my feelings outweigh my thoughts. that’s how anxiety works.

end of thread i guess. i’m so tired.