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maybe it’ll fucking rejog your memory what they were like if i say this publicly even if im not in the best spot mentally because otherwise none of you will EVER LISTEN TO ME https://twitter.com/touchytorracat/status/1388282224131383297
they CONSISTENTLY TREATED ME LIKE A SMALL CHILD AND UNDERMINED MY RESPONSES TO PANIC OR ANY EMOTION FOR THAT FACT
THEY WOUKD CONSISTENTLY PLACE ME IN UNCOMFORTABLE SITUATIONS OR PIT ME AGAINST OTHERS FOR NO GOOD FUCKING REASON
THEY WERE EXPLICIT, AND I MEAN EXPLICIT. I MEAN, HAHA, DID THE 22 OF YOU IN THAT GROUPCHAT JUST FORGET ABOUT THE RANDOM ASS QUESTIONS ABOUT LEGALITY WITH CONSENT? OR WAS THAT JUST A MEMORY I MADE UP
I DONT HAVE PROOF OF THESE THINGS OTHER THAN THE FACT I BRWAKDOWN ALMOST EVERY MONTH BECAUSE I CAN NEVER FUCKING FORGET
HOW ABOUT HOW THEY INDECENTLY TREAT PEOPLE, BUT THEM, THE NEUROTYPICALS (SINCE YOU WANT TO USE MY NEURODIVERGENCY AS AN EXCUSE) ARE JUST "HIDING UNDER MASKS". OK THEN, NOT LIKE THATS WHAT I DO TO TRY AND SURVIVE DAILY LIFE ON MY END
THE WAY YOU PERCEIVE PEOPLE WHO GO AGAINST THEM, THE WAY YOU UNDERMNE PEOPLE’S PANIC WHEN THEY FEEL SOMETHING IS WRONG AROUND THESE PEOPLE, YOU JUST NEED ME TO CALM DOWN BECAUSE IT WASNT THAT WHEN I THOUGHT IT WAS THAT
OH, SILLY ME, THERE I GO AGAIN PANICKING AT RANDOM, IF YOU WANT TO BE REALLLYYYYY NITPICKY, ITS JUST BECAUSE IM SENSITIVE TO ANYTHING AND EVERYTHING AROUND ME. NOPE. NOT BECAUSE OF MY ENVIRONMENT OR THE PEOPLE AROUND ME INDUCING THAT FEELING
WHY DONT YOU JUST MAKE ME DRINK MORE OF THAT POISON CALLED LOSING SELF CONFIDENCE, BECAUSE HAHA, MY PASSIONS? I CANNOT THINK OF MY ART OR ME LIKING THINGS IN THE SAME WAY BECAUSE OF THE CONSISTENT BUZZING OF NEGATIVITY
YOU FORCED A MEGAPHONE INTO MY EARS, A MUZZLE TO KEEP MY UNHAPPINESS QUIET AND TIGHT, A SWORD TO STAB MY HEART AND MAKE ME BLEED
BUT YOU’LL NEVER UNDERSTAND
BECAUSE YOU CAN RECOVER
AND MOVE ONTO THE NEXT TARGET
BUT YOU’LL NEVER UNDERSTAND
BECAUSE YOU CAN RECOVER
AND MOVE ONTO THE NEXT TARGET
DONT YOU FUCKING SEE IT? OR IS IT JUST ME WITH THESE TINTED EYES COATED BLUE
IM TRYING TO REASON WITH MY THOUGHTS BUT THAT’LL NEVER DO
NEVER AGAIN
BECAUSE I LEARNT THE TRUTH THAT YOU ALL TRIED TO HIDE FROM ME
WHAT IS YOUR ALIBI
IM TRYING TO REASON WITH MY THOUGHTS BUT THAT’LL NEVER DO
NEVER AGAIN
BECAUSE I LEARNT THE TRUTH THAT YOU ALL TRIED TO HIDE FROM ME
WHAT IS YOUR ALIBI
im hurt. i feel ashamed. i feel grief for what i could’ve done to prevent being so horrible.
but they never did.
they never tried.
never. fucking. ever.
but they never did.
they never tried.
never. fucking. ever.
call me out, call me names, it doesn’t matter
because just like before, it’s hundreds against me. that never changed
because just like before, it’s hundreds against me. that never changed
please remember i was breaking down a lot when i wrote this but it was literally the only way i could phrase my thoughts properly even if i wasn’t in the best spot. this is obviously brash but to be honest it’s so hard for me not to be brash like this in these situations
