/ csa , trauma , molestation

I& #39;ve never publicly "come forward" but I was molested by my grandmas boyfriend when I was <6 on several occasions.

Once I actually started crying midway through and she caught him, first thing she said was "I told you if this happened again you& #39;re

– going to prison" which always stuck with me. I had to live with her a while ago because of transphobic parents and she still brought up funny memories and stories about him.

I don& #39;t see her anymore.

He didn& #39;t get arrested because the police deemed me "too young" to -

- make a statement about what happened.

I didn& #39;t get counselling because my parents religion included her belief that these things happen to everyone and we should just continue as normal.

I& #39;m making this thread because I beg any of my younger mutuals who may have -

- gone through something similar to reach out for that help. It& #39;s impacted me more as adult than it ever did as a child/teenager in ways I still don& #39;t fully understand