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hey. do u think lxc ever wants to play at being the little brother. spoiled & expectant. I think he would not be very good at it & I also think his dick would b hard abt it.
dilfji would rail the F out of him while murmuring praise into the back of his neck,
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hey. do u think lxc ever wants to play at being the little brother. spoiled & expectant. I think he would not be very good at it & I also think his dick would b hard abt it.
dilfji would rail the F out of him while murmuring praise into the back of his neck,
hold on for like 3 more hours till I& #39;m off I promise to elaborate
ok ok so. im off. longest fucking shift of my life I got cursed out like 4 times. ready to cry BUT even more ready for huan-di shenanigans.
ANYWAYS. lxc probably saw dilfji with the juniors (handwaving wangxian/lsz as a concept, whatever) and went Hm. Not Going To Examine This.
ANYWAYS. lxc probably saw dilfji with the juniors (handwaving wangxian/lsz as a concept, whatever) and went Hm. Not Going To Examine This.
because, like, lwj is such a good dad. he really is. he& #39;s patient and attentive and kind and respectful and supportive and- [starts weeping]
I absolutely can& #39;t blame lxc, Eldest Daughter Extraordinaire, for seeing dilfji console a sobbing junior with just two sentences and a headpat and immediately going to go sit down in the hanshi in complete silence for awhile.
he& #39;s fine. he& #39;s good even! he just. it& #39;s just.
it& #39;s not something he should really be thinking about his little brother. wangji is- a lot of things, beautiful naturally amongst them, and this isn& #39;t the first time lxc has looked at him and thought with pride, he& #39;s better than me.
it& #39;s not something he should really be thinking about his little brother. wangji is- a lot of things, beautiful naturally amongst them, and this isn& #39;t the first time lxc has looked at him and thought with pride, he& #39;s better than me.
but. but. xichen& #39;s been strong for such a long time.
he& #39;d been eight + holding back tears in the snow while wangji wails and bites and refuses to move from mama& #39;s doorstep, & then he was a sect leader, and then. well.
there& #39;s never been room for lxc to want anything for himself.
he& #39;d been eight + holding back tears in the snow while wangji wails and bites and refuses to move from mama& #39;s doorstep, & then he was a sect leader, and then. well.
there& #39;s never been room for lxc to want anything for himself.
for wangji, of course, he wanted the best. still does. (still doesn& #39;t believe it& #39;s him, but wangji is an adult & just this once lxc can& #39;t bear to politely refuse what he wants)
but lxc is an Adult + a Sect Leader + a Good Person, & it is not Good to ask for more than is offered.
but lxc is an Adult + a Sect Leader + a Good Person, & it is not Good to ask for more than is offered.
it is enough, is it not, to have wangji in his life and in his bed? to whisper his brother& #39;s name, to adore him, to spoil him the way he& #39;s always wished he could& #39;ve & watch wangji& #39;s ears turn pink with every stolen kiss? yes, it is enough. xichen is satisfied- more, he is happy.
it& #39;s just that sometimes, wangji will do something that twinges in lxc& #39;s heart, the same place he& #39;s stuffed every memory of being eight and missing mama too but shufu& #39;s so tired and wangji& #39;s miserable, so he just- can& #39;t.
wangji is such a good teacher. a good little brother. of course he is. it& #39;s not his fault xichen always wants more than is sensible, more than he is offered, wants and wants till it drives him mad.
a-zhan is the little brother, and so is to be guided and spoiled and protected- and it& #39;s not like xichen doesn& #39;t enjoy doing that. he does.
it& #39;s just that maybe, perhaps, he sometimes wishes he didn& #39;t always have to be the one looking after everything. wishes he could just rest. be taken care of. be the little one for once, the one to make allowances for. shielded from hurt.
the fundamental thing about lan xichen is that he would give the people he loves anything. he would carve out his own (bleeding) heart. but he doesn& #39;t think he& #39;s allowed to ask for anything /from/ them.
so let& #39;s hope lwj knows his brother. let us visualize that lwj catches a split second of lxc& #39;s wide-eyed, desperate yearning before he schools his face. let us imagine that lwj catches his brother by the arm, in that secluded hallway, and says softly, lan huan.
a-zhan, lxc says, faltering. they know each other so well. is there really a need for xichen to explain?
lan huan, lwj says again, whisper-soft, coaxing, and puts a hand on the back of lxc& #39;s neck. didi, he says, and xichen crumbles, gasps, comes untouched.
lan huan, lwj says again, whisper-soft, coaxing, and puts a hand on the back of lxc& #39;s neck. didi, he says, and xichen crumbles, gasps, comes untouched.
humiliated, broken open, desperate, he sinks weakly to his knees and buries his face in lwj& #39;s robes, sobbing as if his heart will break. as if it has. poor thing, lan xichen, it& #39;s been too long, hasn& #39;t it?
let your brother take care of you. let lwj put those broad, warm hands over lxc& #39;s where they& #39;re clutched onto the front of his robes, let him get down on the ground & hug his brother to him & rock them together. shh, lwj says kindly, as if talking to a small child. it& #39;s alright.
this just makes xichen cry harder, but lwj isn& #39;t fifteen anymore. he has patience. he rubs his brother& #39;s back, cradles him through his tears, and tells him he& #39;s alright. tells him he& #39;s got him, take as long as he needs. hums their mother& #39;s lullaby.
im going to make MYSELF cry here. mkay! onto hornier thoughts.
dilfji bouncing lxc on his cock while calling him a-huan and telling him how pretty he is for gege,,
tying his wrists to the headboard and praising him till he comes untouched, just from lwj calling him a good boy as he desperately squirms, pants, and tries to turn his face,,
tying his wrists to the headboard and praising him till he comes untouched, just from lwj calling him a good boy as he desperately squirms, pants, and tries to turn his face,,
lxc, trying very hard to be spoiled: please pass me the teapot?
lwj: [passes it] anything else?
lxc: ....no, thank you.
lwj: [passes it] anything else?
lxc: ....no, thank you.
my entire shift I was looking into the middle distance & thinking & #39;dilfji wouldn& #39;t treat me like this& #39;...this is how lxc gets thru long meetings now. thinking abt sitting on lwj& #39;s lap + letting his little brother bite marks down his neck while he tells him to hold still for gege.
dilfji putting lxc on his knees and telling him he can rut on lwj& #39;s leg if he wants to come wouldn& #39;t even embarrass lxc that much,,, barely scrumptious,,,
now, telling lxc that he can come however he likes if he asks gege nicely? DELICIOUS. finally some good fucking food.
now, telling lxc that he can come however he likes if he asks gege nicely? DELICIOUS. finally some good fucking food.
