i physically cannot go into detail right now on this but with so much coming forward another thing i held in for so long was my experience with an individual coercing me into sending explicit messages. i later found the courage to say why i was uncomfortable and he said he

was sorry but just says later he’d send me messages like this. after the first time where he used very demanding language and having known my religious trauma knew how vulnerable i was, i derailed all conversation but he would keep turning things sexual

i cant post it here for obvious reasons but it included explicit images whether of himself out of nowhere or drawings/art and a constant degradation of women and kick out of wanting to cause pain

i convinced myself i wanted this but the discomfort and anxiety i felt and constant attempts to stop things and using my vulnerabilities to his advantage made me realise quickly i was coerced and the worst part was when i told friends and they told me that

this individual had actually done similar to two other women at the same time as me while he was trying to tell me he wanted to move to me and wanted to meet with me. he wouldnt ask or proposition sex he’d be straight up like ‘when we sleep together’.

and id like to also add i was questioning at this time and believed i was bi which was not the case i realised now. that was another part of my religious trauma. i let myself be taken advantage of and other friends dealt with him too while he tried to convince me i was special.

this individual is /bowtiesonly. i feel very sick right now and the only people who knew were my therapist and close friends. i hate this fandom with all my being.

as i said i cant go into much detail and i refuse to post any of the worse screenshots or explicit messages because its too triggering for me right now so i hope this was enough.