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scorpio risings go through life with a very focused gaze into how they can actually use their experiences + pain to build their identity and so in the process create an almost ironclad kind of defense against many of those that mean to cast them off before the hear their thoughts
theyve often been very silenced for what they truly care about in life and so it creates this deep reservoir of ideas that never fully go expressed. they've also been most hurt by those closest to them and so their guard is high in terms of who they show their true self to
what they actually come to learn is that when it comes to their own hurt and anger, it can be used for so many more powerful things. they have this deep discontentment towards the state of the world because at the end of the day they want to help people move past their darkness
they've been conditioned to act wise beyond their years simply because they were always in a place that prioritised their survival rather than their emotional comfort. it wasn't necessarily a cold home but it was a place that was ruthless towards their identity
though it allowed them to grow into something deeply independent and detached from the existence and imposition of society and its archaic rules and order, it created a deep rift between what they found comfortable and what they actually deserved as human beings
they end up finding the beauty within the destruction of everything and there they come to cherish things about life and death itself. it's in that process of appreciation that they come to almost fear the power of how much impact they can have in their environment
they become fearful of how much control they truly have and so it can almost become this process of self destructive tendencies to dull the full spectrum of what they're capable of. it can be this feeling, this fire, that consumes them from the inside fully
so thusly they seek out people that help them reconnect with the moment, that appreciate everything as it is and what is can become rather than the potential of it all going away into a flame. it then becomes another battle of fighting off the thoughts that keep them
from chasing away anything they perceive as something they don't deserve. their mind becomes a battlefield where they have to thread very carefully and ensure that they don't get sucked into the vortex
what they realise at the end of the day is the true power of emotions and how it spurs us to create these moments in time where everything is preserved not only as purely as it originated but rather as a greater understanding and process of connectivity between people and pain
though sometimes it always feels like they're looking from the outside, through this glass pane that stops them from truly touching another person's soul. this something that holds them back is different for everyone but it all stems from this sense of resentment against society
okay i have more thoughts but I'll stop here
