Deactivated my account for the past month just to feel something*

*remind myself that I can still be a Responsible Citizen and overall Good Human Person without being Extremely Online at the overwhelming expense of my body, mind, and soul.

I really wish I could meet all of you IRL or something because Jesus Christ are these apps making us suffer so fucking much

I’m honestly probably ~2 years away from deactivating my account permanently. I didn’t miss how being here makes me feel, not for a second.

Missed y’all, but WOW. It felt good to not feel reactive all the fucking time.

I also quit coffee completely and alcohol mostly. That was nice too. I sleep through the night now. Like, straight through. I get tired at 10, wake up naturally around 7, and drink more water than I probably ever have in my life.

I’ve been going on a lot of walks and taking MUCH deeper breaths. I’m less anxious, more alert. Fuck, I LISTEN better now. It’s wild to find access to these parts of my brain again.

Basically, my body is recovering from everything I put her through during my past 12 years here.

Big tech is killing us. It’s literally destroying our bodies. I had no idea how much or how bad it had become for me, specifically.

I still enjoy connecting with y’all, learning things here, and even writing/ communicating this way. But I can’t put my body through this anymore.

I’m not in the position yet where I can comfortably and safely walk away forever without it impacting my work — and therefore, my ability to provide for myself. But that’s definitely the goal now. And I will make it happen sooner rather than later.

P.S. Read this book. K bye