McChord AFB planes are rumbling over my roof. Stars are brilliant on a beautiful WA night. I'm reflecting on the day. Hard. Good. Both. Last few days I've been scrubbing mom & dad's house like mad. While they keep things picked up, sadly nothing has been able to be deep cleaned.

Dad just can't physically do it. Took me 2 hours for each bathroom. Layers of dust on walls, light fixtures, ceilings not to mention state of showers/toilets. Scrubbed floors & walls. Laundered all the rugs, dog bed covers. Cleaned carpets. Went nonstop today.

Dad's bathroom has curtains I sewed him in high school. Took them down to wash. They didn't hold up well. But hey, got 30+ yrs out of them. My sewing skills rocked. Ordered new ones.

Mom kept asking today why she wasn't going to school. She keeps going farther back in past.

She remembers my name but not always that I'm her daughter. Tonight she asked if she was spending the night here.

Dad had a breakdown this evening. It's all so overwhelming to him & he's so sad to be losing mom. I stopped cleaning & we went for a walk in the neighborhood.

This lifted all our spirits. We came back & I made them their favorite German meal of schnitzel, spätzle, and red cabbage. Cheesecake for dessert. Dad ate with such gratitude & joy. Food can often be the ultimate way to love.

Became a great aunt today. My parents, great grandparents. Bittersweet. Only hear from older brother when he has "news." He doesn't give a rat's ass about me. I've come to accept that. Just wish he'd see mom & dad more.

So tired. I pray for wisdom. #Alzheimers is such a thief.