McChord AFB planes are rumbling over my roof. Stars are brilliant on a beautiful WA night. I& #39;m reflecting on the day. Hard. Good. Both. Last few days I& #39;ve been scrubbing mom & dad& #39;s house like mad. While they keep things picked up, sadly nothing has been able to be deep cleaned.

Dad just can& #39;t physically do it. Took me 2 hours for each bathroom. Layers of dust on walls, light fixtures, ceilings not to mention state of showers/toilets. Scrubbed floors & walls. Laundered all the rugs, dog bed covers. Cleaned carpets. Went nonstop today.

Dad& #39;s bathroom has curtains I sewed him in high school. Took them down to wash. They didn& #39;t hold up well. But hey, got 30+ yrs out of them. My sewing skills rocked. Ordered new ones.

Mom kept asking today why she wasn& #39;t going to school. She keeps going farther back in past.

She remembers my name but not always that I& #39;m her daughter. https://abs.twimg.com/emoji/v2/... draggable="false" alt="💔" title="Gebrochenes Herz" aria-label="Emoji: Gebrochenes Herz"> Tonight she asked if she was spending the night here.

Dad had a breakdown this evening. It& #39;s all so overwhelming to him & he& #39;s so sad to be losing mom. I stopped cleaning & we went for a walk in the neighborhood.

This lifted all our spirits. We came back & I made them their favorite German meal of schnitzel, spätzle, and red cabbage. Cheesecake for dessert. Dad ate with such gratitude & joy. Food can often be the ultimate way to love.

Became a great aunt today. My parents, great grandparents. Bittersweet. Only hear from older brother when he has "news." He doesn& #39;t give a rat& #39;s ass about me. I& #39;ve come to accept that. Just wish he& #39;d see mom & dad more.

So tired. I pray for wisdom. #Alzheimers is such a thief.