I’ve been meaning to speak about this for a long time but I’ve been hesitant to or not ready.

TW. Sexual Assault.

We often find ourselves carelessly falling in love with people through a screen, we convince our head that we know them but we have no idea how easily-

we can be mistaken. Back in December 2019 I got in a relationship with a person through rp, that person was Alec. Alec and I were involved heavily ooc which resulted to us meeting under very weird circumstances, a dangerous and foolish irrational move blinded by so called love.

Throughout my stay there everything was perfect, or so I had thought. Now both of us were into very extreme kinks, cnc being on my list but at one point my safe word was ignored, I told said person I was in pain and asked them to stop but I got mocked. After it was done I cried,

I couldn’t understand why and I kept apologizing about it saying that I was sorry that if I made them feel like I didn’t want them, I was used to that. Months after I came to realize that unknowing of if it was acknowledged that was assault, it was stepping my boundaries and so-

My reaction was to cry. My story here is not meant for my own “revenge” as I expect to hear, it is being put out to prevent any of this happening to people on this platform and to spread safety so I’d advise you keep your comments for yourself.

I was manipulated into showing my naked body because “they had only seen it a couple of times”, sure the intention might’ve not been to make me uncomfortable but my need to feel safe and take slow steps should’ve been respected. The matter was also exposed to the public and

I had even been made fun of for the fact I hadn’t shown my nude body a lot of times, or the way it was expected to my online companion. I’d like to end this thread with saying nobody deserves to be silenced, realizing things went far even if it’s later

Doesn’t mean you have to cover your mouth and seek silence. I’m sharing my story in hopes to even help one person see through similar behavior, to speak up and to be a little more safe and smart when it comes to dating people on here.

Behind the screen everyone can be perfect, it’s what comes behind all of that that makes us who we are. I’m ending this thread by saying a heavy weight has been lifted from my shoulders, that even typing this out helps more with the healing of that scar.

I wish said person a good life and I hope nobody has to endure the same behavior many on here had to. To all of you who took the time to read this, stay safe and if you need to share your story with someone I’m always here. I love you

Many will say why are you speaking up now, I had shared my thoughts with two people Tylar and Ailea, two people close to me and then after a while they stopped talking to me and later they got really close with my abuser. My desire to speak up dropped lower

since the two people closest to me ignored that.