Ok I& #39;m gonna share something very personal on this site, which I& #39;ve never really done. I have quite a few friends my age that have died of suicide or cancer or something else. (1/4)

Lately I& #39;ve been having these dreams where in the middle of the dream I& #39;ll realize the person I& #39;m talking to is actually dead, and therefore it& #39;s a dream. But I don& #39;t want to spoil things by letting the person know. So I make some excuse for us to go get a beer together. (2/4)

And we chat and whatnot and in the dream I know they are actually dead but it feels like borrowed time. Like I& #39;m getting some extra time with them. And I have to trick them into hanging out with me more because I know I& #39;m going to wake up soon. (3/4)

And I wake up sobbing. All the times I& #39;ve cried in the last few years have been after these dreams. The reason I bring it up here is I& #39;m wondering if other people have these and if I should keep it up or just wake myself up. (4/4)