So its the Anniversary of my ex gf's death and I'd talk bout mental health.

The year is 2014 And the girl that broke my heart walks in to class late as usual. Smile on her face that could melt the snow bc her name was Dawn.

Eve of an adolescent courtship, stealing gazes and

Sneaking Smiles. But they say that the brightest light casts the Darkest shadow.
And so it wasn't that i didn't see that she was trapped but rather i didn't make her feel safe enough to reach out to me.

Truly the greatest regret of my life.

Even though i had seen signs and thought nothing of it, i still blame my younger self a fucking idiot, too busy pursuing sexual relations to see that she really need help even now im gutted as i think back, a fucking scum.
final day of Cokes and i received a call while i loiter

The streets of Suva, that Dawn did not rise the next day thinking it was a prank i reached out to my friends but they knew nothing, i quickly go to her place and see police vehicles her cousin greets me with a empty smile.

That Dawn had committed Suicide

IMPOSSIBLE

She was by far the brightest person i knew which i why i fell in love bc she reminded me of my mother which in hindsight should have made me more vigilant.

I blamed her parents for this, i blamed her impaired brother for being incapable i blamed myself for not being enough.

Im not really well learned in mental illnesses or mental health but i hope that people take care of their wellbeing bc Mental health can alleviate depression and anxiety anf if you need to talk im keen to listen in the hopes of redemption

Well anyways stay blessed