I'm good & honestly happy with my body a large percentage of the time, it just sucks that I'm in an industry that will actively reject me for being fat.
All I want to do is create good hot content and be an obedient lil hucow, but finding people willing to shoot w is few & far.

& like... Peep that wording. People *willing* to shoot w. Not even people *actively desiring* to shoot w, but people just willing to are hard to find.
& I get it, I do.
They risk losing money on people with my body. They won't make as many sales on the content we shoot.

But like...
A part of why I still do this is bc of how few people who look like me are doing it, and how impactful it was for me when I first saw plus size people enjoying kink.
Representation is important, and sometimes I feel like I *am* that rep for some people.

I want fat people just getting into kink to be able to find my Videos and see that "oh hey I CAN be kinky af while still being fat". People who have been into kink for a long time who then get injured and see "oh, I can be disabled and kinky". Alt body types enjoying kink.

I saw this the other day and it helped kick my brain off.
The person saying that only "deranged ones" would enjoy watching fat kinky people is very open about his own kinks on his profile, being a kinky person, yet feels free to call those who like fats "deranged".

My body is gross. My body is "ewwww". My body is so hideous that only deranged people would want to see it naked
(&tbh his comment wasn't even on a vid of me, but of someone fat but smaller than me. He would probably think I'm hideous!)
Those who choose to shoot w fat people

run the risk of getting bombarded with these comments, and I don't hold it against them that they would rather just steer clear.

It just sucks that my body, the meat sack I inhabit, closes so many doors, and some days that hits harder than others. Yesterday was a bad day for it.