Yesterday I was “commended” for withstanding so much. For being the “glue” and I did not feel happy about it one bit. Then they proceeded to say “Heavy is the head that wears the crown”

No. Just no.

I deserve happiness without other peoples weight. I deserve praise and love without withstanding heavy and hurtful things. My existence alone is deserving. I am not what I do or what I endure. I am deserving and worthy REGARDLESS.

No wonder I have all this hurt, resentment and pain trapped in my body. I have moved through life in expectation of hard things. I’ve grown accustomed. I’ve built an armor. I don’t make it look easy, I’m just in repetitive cycle of withstanding what isn’t mine. But I am DESERVING