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(Venting)
I don& #39;t know if it& #39;s something concerning to me as of late, but I& #39;m finding myself to be suddenly hit with the idea of death out of nowhere and then feel terrified of whenever the day may come for me or anyone I hold dear to me... It& #39;s kind of happening more and more
I don& #39;t know if it& #39;s something concerning to me as of late, but I& #39;m finding myself to be suddenly hit with the idea of death out of nowhere and then feel terrified of whenever the day may come for me or anyone I hold dear to me... It& #39;s kind of happening more and more
I mean, I know it& #39;s bound to happen and usually I won& #39;t think about it as I got a lot of my life left to live for. But something about knowing that I& #39;ll hit the 3 decade mark of being alive next year is making my anxious mind hitting the midlife crisis button like crazy.
Then I start to think about what it would be like to be dying until I draw my last breath, and that shit terrifies me. My mind then goes through all the huge ass questions about death like would there even be an afterlife or maybe there won& #39;t be anything at all--just emptiness.
But then mostly, would I even be able to leave a significant mark on this world before I die? Would I leave an impact that will last for years, decades, maybe even over a century after I& #39;m gone? I feel that I got so much to give to many and I& #39;d be incomplete if I died before that
I can feel it within myself that I was meant to entertain, and I have meaningful stories to tell that would make our world a little better to live in. I want to get there and get that out there before the Reaper comes to collect, and I guess I feel that I& #39;m just in bad stagnation
However, I know that if I am fortunate enough, my end won& #39;t come for years, and I got time to do what I live to do. I& #39;ll get there if I keep focused on it.
For now, I& #39;m going to talk with my therapist about this and learn how to overcome this before it gets worse.
For now, I& #39;m going to talk with my therapist about this and learn how to overcome this before it gets worse.
Just needed to get this off my chest to try to relax myself, so sorry about this, but also thanks if you read through this thread. I& #39;ll be fine. This is why I got a mental health support network in place, and everyone should have one as well.
I hope you have a good life.
I hope you have a good life.
