every egg is like "i& #39;m ugly and hairy and gross and no one will ever love me" and then you see them again after starting hrt and they& #39;ve literally aged backwards 20 years
egg: i& #39;m grey ace in that i kind of have a sex drive but every time i try it& #39;s just awkward and kinda traumatic even though i& #39;m pretty sure i did everything right
egg (former): i& #39;ve had sex with three different women today and i haven& #39;t even taken my progesterone yet
egg (former): i& #39;ve had sex with three different women today and i haven& #39;t even taken my progesterone yet
this is not to say that all or even most grey ace eggs become hypersexual when they start hrt, just that... it& #39;s been known to happen
so i think a lot of folks who are around the 3-5 year hrt mark make jokes like this a lot and it& #39;s scary for folks who haven& #39;t started hrt yet because it *sounds* like you take a few pills and your entire personality changes. that& #39;s not how it works.
there is no one "how it works," really. it works differently for everyone! some trans people get REALLY horny, some people don& #39;t. the most important thing to understand is that hrt may affect your libido, but it can& #39;t
outright change your sexuality. that& #39;s your choice.
outright change your sexuality. that& #39;s your choice.
you may find yourself subject to new attractions, new sensations, new *lots* of things when you start hrt. but you are fundamentally still you (albeit a "better version" so to speak, at least according to a lot of post-hrt trans folks).
this doesn& #39;t happen without your knowledge or consent, in my experience. it& #39;s a gradual change that happens because aligning your body with a more correct-feeling sense of self naturally leads to you experiencing life in a new way, and all that newness can& #39;t help but change you!
it may sound scary, but i promise it& #39;s worth it. if you think you want hrt, and you have the ability to try... do it. give it a shot. you won& #39;t get any permanent changes for a good month or so. there& #39;s nothing wrong with quitting if you don& #39;t like how it makes you feel.
lot of folks in my mentions like "wish that were me but it won& #39;t :(" and i just want to share this video i made in 2017 where i state quite definitively that i hate my body and believe i am unloveably disgusting. needless to say, that& #39;s not how i feel now https://youtu.be/2X_Cd_MhWos ">https://youtu.be/2X_Cd_MhW...
find trans people where you live. find trans people online. talk to them. ask them questions. ask for help. take care of yourself like you want to live. eventually you& #39;ll realize you& #39;ve already got one foot out of hell, so you might as well go the rest of the way.
if i& #39;ve learned anything in my time as a public trans person it& #39;s that trans people are EVERYWHERE. we can be hard to track down, and we might not be right up in your neighborhood, but wherever you are... we& #39;re here too.
i wish it were easier to start hrt, but it is easier now (in the states, at least) than it ever has been. i got on hrt without much trouble in oklahoma of all places! and i only spent about $30/month on hrt without insurance. it& #39;s not a cheap process, but it could be MUCH worse