Trauma is exhausting.

Long story short, I had something retriggered this morning. And I mean it when I use that word.

I'm exhausted, dissociated, and every muscle in my body that I can feel, aches from being coiled for too many hours.

Praying friends, I could use the prayers

I have a several hours long medical assessment Friday, a situation thats extremely retriggering, and I have to go alone.

My husband, who has come to every medical appointment since this particular trauma surfaced, isn't permitted.

I genuinely don't know how I'll get through it.

No caffeine or pain meds, because not feeling all pain might skew the results.

I don't know how having my partner there is too distracting and problematical for a physical ability assessment then, oh I dunno, the intense dissociation and missing signals from a trauma response.

I shared someone else's excellent thread awhile back, which talked about using "triggered" irresponsibly/inappropriately.

It has very specific meaning, and that needs to be saved for those situations. So that when someone says "I am triggered", it communicates what it needs too.