I think I mentioned this before but i really hate how emotionally sensitive I am to being blocked, softblocked, muted, unfollowed, etc

i wish I didn't have that whole reaction that I have

i try not to bring it up ever because ppl should definitely do that if I'm upsetting them, it's just for precisely that reason that it sucks that my brain responds how it does when I notice

it's my problem that I feel that way, and I can't expect anyone to prioritize my feelings over theirs, but... yeah I just wish I could just shrug and be like "cool whatever that you don't like me I guess good riddance"

cause y'know. i do kind of care a lot when ppl don't like me

I guess I kind of already alluded to that in this thread which I posted because I ended up having to block someone else because they were being kinda pushy even tho I empathized with their plight and was reluctant to block them for that reason https://twitter.com/joyceestick/status/1381127195645472772

like. some other more popular youtuber whomst I admired a lot has blocked me for a (probably??? idk) similar reason, and it kinda took me a while to get over it, and also I can't look at any of their videos anymore (even tho I like them) cause it'll just get me messed up again