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ʟᴏsᴛ~
Here goes nothing-
ʟᴏsᴛ~
Here goes nothing-
So a month ago. I could literally say i was lost in the Explanation of religion and all the god & divine being or beings whatever you like, it was really stressful. After all that one thing i kept on my mind for 17ʏs.
was ᴡʜᴀᴛᴇᴠᴇʀ ʜᴀᴘᴘᴇɴs ɢᴏᴅ ᴡɪʟʟ ᴍᴀᴋᴇ ɪᴛ ʀɪɢʜᴛ
was ᴡʜᴀᴛᴇᴠᴇʀ ʜᴀᴘᴘᴇɴs ɢᴏᴅ ᴡɪʟʟ ᴍᴀᴋᴇ ɪᴛ ʀɪɢʜᴛ
unfortunately for me on the last month i had been praying and praying asking and complaining to God about why the fuck am i confused. ᴅᴀᴍɴ ɢᴏᴅ ᴡʜᴇʀᴇ ʏᴏᴜ ᴀᴛ ᴀʀᴇ ʏᴏᴜ ᴇᴠᴇɴ ʀᴇᴀʟ? Is what my brain said i was lost asf it was bad bad i was scared.
ᴡʜᴀᴛᴇᴠᴇʀ ʜᴀᴘᴘᴇɴs ʙᴜᴛ ɪ& #39;ʟʟ ғɪɢᴜʀᴇ ᴛʜɪɴɢs ᴏᴜᴛ i said i knew i had a hope. I thought i was a stress and struggle that& #39;s it. I didn& #39;t want to loose the hope named god. But that on month march stricks. March was bad. I always hated ur
and many stuffs Happened until some very deep realization hit me. That i have been clowned all my life until now. I hated it..and liked it at the same time. In fact i wanted it. It felt great to know that. It& #39;s was a stress relief
But now I& #39;m still lost in the Explanation of myself my trust issues my fear if something that doesn& #39;t even exist. The sentences ",how can so MANY number of ppl be so dumb.....or am I Wrong" i just can& #39;t get over it
Okay so coming back. Sorry i had to go and oreten I& #39;m not and atheist anyways continuing with the rant. The main problem of mine is working over impulse and i loose it very often and as a religious upbringing house. Everything is pretty much about it too.
so in other words I struggle to keep my mouth shut and i might rant facts about the book club. And this can make me getting myself into a serious trouble by i can get out if it. It& #39;s easy, the one thing is. Now I& #39;m standing in the middle of both sides and i cant trust any of them
And that& #39;s it& #39;s I& #39;m still lost trying & crying depressed as always. But th difference is i haven& #39;t said seriously that i want to kms & was genuinely happy for a long week and i felt like the night & the morning was good and even wished myself a goodnight. This happened after 10ys
