This thread is about the odd transitional phrase of being happy for being vaccinated and, yet, nervous, about returning to a pre pandemic normal; the sense of relief about being fully vaccinated, the anticipation of taking a long walk unmasked. Hugging friends again!

I find myself day dreaming about a trip to the beach or a Bob Weir concert at Red Rocks. Will David Duchovny do a concert tour this year? Then, I get invited to appetizers and cocktail party at a restaurant with outdoor seating and freak out because I will be around people!

Do I still remember how to act around people? Most I wont know. Its a work function. It’s actually to welcome me to my new job. It’s so nice and I’m so looking forward to it, but am nervous honestly because I haven’t socialize in a year. Do I remember how? But baby steps..

Because surely that kind of function is the type of normal we should expect. Cant stay a hermit forever can I? But I’ve been so cautious for a year. But I’m fully vaccinated. Still back to beaches and concerts and travel, it’s too soon isn’t it?

So the last day of my last job is a virtual open house where all staff has to be in the new office and you know, in conference rooms together and stuff. Then two weeks later the event for my new job to welcome me. It’s very nice really, both events, I am looking forward to them

That’s the problem it being happy, scared, relieved, nervous simultaneously. I don’t have the existential dread or fear of death I had for the last year, so that’s nice. But I know I’m not the only one going through this right now or am I?

It’s three things:
1. Is it too soon. Are we rushing things? How about the variants? How about the unvaccinated children?
2. My introverted self have taken stronger hold through reinforcement in the last year? Returning to normal social activities is anxiety inducing
3...

3. Is probably best expressed in this snippet of a blog I wrote two months ago. I want to be sure my relationship to time, to the planet, to my activities, to myself does not return to what it was pre pandemic. We were a society in frenetic movement going nowhere.

Thanks all who’ve read this thread. Definitely longer than I anticipated.